It seems that sleep keeps avoiding me tonight as thoughts of my boo invade my mind. I miss him soo much. It's so hard being away from him for so long. He's supposed to be home soon, but can't say when exactly. Every now and then he gets the chance to get online and chat with me and SOMETIMES even get to skype with me. Afterward I'm on Cloud Nine and sleep comes easily to me. but it's nights like this that I don't hear from him, that I toss and turn. I hate how empty the bed feels, even with all of my pointless pillows and my bedhog of a dog. :)

Haha, listen to me... I sound pathetic.

Earlier today, I was thinking of how life changing it's been for me once I got with D. He's taught me so much, helped me overcome my fears, helped me become more of an open minded person, been my inspiration in my poetry, and in life in general. He's brought out the better side of me, and has helped me better my life, in so many different ways. He's made me a confident, stronger, more brave person. D gave me something to life for, someone to die for, and a life to hold onto and cherish forever. And never neglects to remind me how far I've come in this last year alone. He always remembers to remind me how precious I am to him, how much he loves me and believes in me. I couldn't thank God for placing such a wonderful man in my life. He's been nothing short of a Blessing to me.

^^ This is why I sound so pathetic. When someone who has made you THIS happy, and has changed your life THIS much, You can't help but miss him soo much that it twists your stomach and steals your hours of sleep away.

I feel dead when he's not around... HE is my life...

I can only feel alive again when we talk, or when I write about him.

There must be something wrong with me :P